LIFE

last thursday,all staffs got their bonus..semua orang nampak gembira..but sometimes,what your face shows doesn’t reflects what is inside your heart!..but majority sangat berpuas hati sbb compared to the amount that they got before Ms. Nancie become our GM..

the next morning,sy meronda2 sekitar park dgn p.iwan..mcm biasa..observed all the birds..we found 1 nest of western-crowned pigeon..belum bertelur..then have some discussion on breeding history of scarlet ibis..masa ronda2 tu, jumpe dgn ramai feeder..masing2 happy sbb br dpt bonus..ada yg kirim duit ke negara masing2,ada yg dh hbs bonus sbb beli handphone baru!! cepat betul!!blm 24hours dh hbs..

then lalu di staff kuarters..wah!!ada sebijik kancil..walaupun juz a kancil,but still something yg agak ‘luarbiasa’.coz yg stay dikuarters mostly foreign worker..then i find out..rp2nye kancil tu belongs to Bakri..indonesian yg ada IC merah..

that evening,mcm biasa,Ms.Nancie mesti ty about the bonus..how our staffs spend their money..then i told her what i’ve find out on that morning..sprti dijangka..she was so surprise!..however,for me,everyone have their own way on how the spend and plan their life..

for me..i’ll keep the bonus and will spend it for my ‘bigday’=)walaupun bg sesetgh org masih lama lg,tp bg sy yg akn mghadapinye,masa yg ada sgt singkat..i want it to be well planned!

now,i’ve started doing my doorgift..handmade!..every nite,after work,i’ll do sebanyak mana yang mampu..thanks to my mum who actually be my ’sifu’..ajar sy utk buat doorgift ni..walaupun sy fikir mau beli readymade,but my mum always encourage me to do by myself..’more sentimental values’ katanya=)

thanks to ibu who be the leader in the ‘doorgift project

sekarang ini, saya semakin faham kenapa ramai antara kita lebih suka memendamkan perasaan atau lebih suka bercakap di belakang sahaja..tak suka berterus-terang..

kerana saya sendiri pernah alaminya..saya selalu mendengar cerita2 kurang elok dari orang2 yang sy kenal mengenai ada antara org2 yg sy kenali itu, selalu bercerita hal yg bukan2 & tak betul mengenai sy..mereka sendiri yg dtg bercerita pd sy..bkn sy yg bertanya atau sibuk2 menghantar ’spy’ sbb sbnrnya sy sgt sibuk dgn kerja2 harian & tak ada ms nk layan cerita2 begini, tp kalau sudah beberapa org menceritakan hal yg sm, sy boleh jadi tertarik & ambil pusing cerita2 itu..kerana sy adalah MANUSIA yg xlari dr kesilapan & mempunyai had kesabaran..

sy pn ambil kptsn utk explain kepada org yg berkenaan & mendoakan agar dia mendapat apa yg dia mahukan dalam hidupnya..tp penjelasan & doa sy dibalas dgn kata2 hinaan, bahasa yg kasar..’hati busuk’..’hati tak putih’..’berpura-pura’..’kasi bersihla hati ko tu’..siapa dia utk menilai hati org? siapa dia utk menyuruh org membersihkan hati sdgkan kata2 kesat & hinaan keluar dr mulutnya? hati sy lebih sakit mendengar kata2 ini berbanding dgn cerita2 tak elok y disampaikan kpda sy kerana kata2 ini direct dr dia.

akhirnya seorg sahabat sy yg turut mengenalinya menasihatkan sy agar lebih bersabar dgn perangainya yg mmg panas baran & angin xtentu psl..org lain jg pandai menilai perangai yg elok atau tidak..biarla dia diawang-awangan kerana menganggap sy jelous pd dia & familynya serta sntiasa nk ambil tahu perkembangan mereka..pd sy,mereka tak ada apape utk dicemburukan..dia masih lg bekerja dgn kelulusan SPM..mengapa sy harus jelous?sy dh cukup sibuk utk mensyukuri rezeki Allah ini dgn sentiasa berusaha kerana Allah pasti memberi ganjaran pd mereka yg berusaha..

Akhirnya sy fhm kenapa dlm sesetengah hal, org lebih sk bercakap belakang dr berterus-terang..kerana ada org yg tak boleh terima apa yg diperkatakan sehingga masalah menjadi meleret2 & berpnjgan walaupun maaf telah dipinta tp masih tdk memaafkan..

“Semakin tinggi kita berada, semakin ramai yg ingin lihat kita tersungkur”

Last nignt, my father said ‘Adik ni memang betul2 kuat tido’. Yes! i agreed!! adik selalu je tido..dia pernah tido dgn lengkap bertelekung after selesai solat..selalunya solat isya’ coz between maghrib n isya’, dia selalunya mengaji Al- Quran or membaca tafsir. kalau xsekolah, saturday n sunday, dia selalu je tertido dgn telekung after solat subuh..

bila dikejutkan,dia akan bgn..bukak buku,buat homework..sangat bersemangat nak study..but after 10minutes, tgk2 dia tertido kat meja study!aduiii!! kejutkan lagi..last2, dia sendiri kata ‘isk..banyak betul syaitan kat mata adik ni..asyik ngntuk je’..

last night, after solat terawikh di surau,  dia bukak buku..mungkin dia sudah fresh after berbuka puasa and solat because i also rasa segar selepas tarawikh (very good exercise)..but then, after a while, i looked at her..she’s sleeping!!

then i kejutkan dia and said to her,’ adik, akak rasa adik mmg kuat tido! not because of syaitan yg banyak kat mata adik as u said before, but in bulan puasa pun adik sama je..kuat tido..syaitan kan diikat masa ramadhan’..

she just looked at me..empty..clueless..n i know, dia mamai lagi tu..

the best conclusion, ADIK KUAT TIDO!!

this morning i received short SMS from ikhwan..

‘Guyz, our mummy, DR. fatimah dah dilantik as UNIMAS TNC academic & international’

then i terus send msg to DR. fatimah.ucapkan tahniah..she’s one of my idol..be a great mother, lecturer who always require ‘perfection’ in every single aspect but yet still tahu and jaga tatatertib agama..

mudah-mudahan kejayaan sentiasa mengiringi kami semua..

…i miss all of u very much..

success means something different

to each one of us,

but it comes to those who are willing to work hard

and who continue to be dedicated

to making their dreams come true

success means setting goals

and focusing yourself in the right direction

in order to reach them.

it means believing in yourself

and constantly reminding yourself

that you are capable of achieving your desires.

but most of all, success is being who you are

and feeling proud of yourself

for every task & challenge

that you face and conquer along the way…